I walk as my spirit guides me, and experiences good or bad, will always affect my character and therefore my choices and lastly my spirit. Join me on my spirit walk, Walk the path with me, for it leads wherever you want it too. Feel free to post your own walk, but leave comment to the "Spirit Walking Observations" topic, found under Tureri's Scrapyard.

As I walk down the tunnel of misconception and lies, that I have weaved in my short time on this rich earth, I see the deception, I see the Concern, I see the anger, no one likes to be deceived, especially be it someone they love, or care for. Is it really fair to burden and confuse others, what gives us the right, is it our strength? not likely many other denizens of earth are stronger. Is it our speed? again no many more denizens are faster. Is it our Intellect, our cunning and our willingness to destroy all that stand in our way? That it is, we are humans, Nature made us a sentient race, our purpose was to watch over and guard nature and her innocent denizens. But instead we butcher forests, animals, we treat them cruelly and harvest them for food. What gives us the right to deceive and rule over the other ones of our world? What truly gives us the right? Is it this misconception of superiority. Is it that because we could take what we want and could do what we want, that we do? Again i am in the tunnel, for it symbolizes how I have chosen to deceive people, and through that, assert superiority over them and others lower than them. Why is it that I have made this tunnel, is it because other humans have deceived me and goaded me, that i find that i do it to others. I can never remember this tunnel's walls been so thick. The tunnel is thinner back but thicker forward, could it be that my growing intellect has caused me to considered others inferior? Well i can no longer live in this web of lies, i must redeem myself so my spirit may go free and happy, to fly in the warm sun of innocence and purity, with the few that fly there. Can one really change? Can one find the light at the end of the tunnel without dieing? Can i thin the walls till i am free of this tunnel?

Not only do I live in the tunnel, my spirit lives in the jail, where the chains of the past are shackled on, and the bars of pain and suffering surround me. Where the chains hold me evermore tighter the more i try to forget the mistakes of the past. I believe no one is free of the chains icy embrace, it grips tightly as we all make mistakes and find ourselves running, but the chain is too long, for we can not escape it, where ever we run it always pulls us down, it is always following. The bars are always in the foreground always enclosing, the cell gets smaller and larger as the sorrows weight heavier on our spirits shoulders. We fight off the bars as well as we can, some speak, some sing, some fight. but its all fighting in the end, we are always fighting off the bars to save ourselves from the ultimate darkness. The bars are defined in many ways, Many call it Hell, some call it earth, others believe that they are immune from their sins due to the non-existence of an afterlife. But still the torture of the bars only comes when we are alive. and some try to end that torture, believing you are immune is worse for you tend to chose the worse paths, you mislead, confuse and ultimately corrupt your Spirit. Which then misleads you and robs you of your independence, that is what truly damns your spirit, when it thinks that murder is the right path. Many have the opportunity to shape there Spirit, but instead they are lazy, and allow themselves to be shaped by another ones spirit, another ones words, another ones concepts and thoughts. Have I been such as affected, Do I run from my Chains? and bring these bars closer? Have I been lazy? and shaped by another's words? I have, it is a Disease which I must cure if i am to live in perfect equilibrium, I must face my bars without fear, I must Forgive and therefore unlock my chains. For to truly save myself, I must first Try to do it first.

Life is like a pond, a big pond. Our spirit floats through it and occasionally flys above it. Spirits represent the fish, it is strange pond, where the slightest movement or action may ripple to other spirits and affect them. Death is when the meaner fish below drag you down, or the time is simply up. For the we all must die. Our Spirit must stop its walk eventually. Only time survives the ravenous corrosion of which time brings. Rocks are worn away, shadows of there former glory. More rock is added, tree's grow and burn. But time is a slow thing. And there is always time for the next generation to spring up before their time comes. The spirit fish swim constantly, constantly dieing and breeding. The birth always calls the death. None may escape deaths loving embrace, for it is loving, it cuts the chains, disintegrates the bars and burns the tunnel. you are free of pain and guilt in death. but you are also free of yourself. It is a misconception we all must die, so we should hurry to live, but we don't do we? Many ruin their lives, and kill themselves. For we humans are a suicidal race, Not in the way some of us do such as the physical, quick and more common way. But in the way we care for ourselves, The humans pig themselves on food, knowledge and in some cases blood. We are all doomed to die but some kill themselves quicker, by the mistreatment of our physical being, we promote our spirit to mistreat its vassal. We cause ourselves damage, heart attacks and strokes are some. Have you even seen another denizen of nature such as a wild wolf, eat itself to death? drink alcohol to poison itself? or even mistreat itself? They don't, they only tragically fight for life, their will to live is expressed in their self preservation. It is indeed tragic that their struggle to live is futile. They all die in the end, all humans die in the end. They know this yet instead of giving up these beings we call lesser, fight on and live as much as possible. Why do we fight on? Why do some give up? Many say These lesser beings life and pointless and devoid of love, and enrichment. But I say They are the true livers. I say we are the lesser beings. They live more, love more and their lives are richer than most of ours. They are not hostile to each other, they are all bound in a sacred bond of fellowship, in terrible times they stand together, no matter their differences. While we humans can't even work together in many cases, and fight within our community, we kill each other, and rarely stand united. You may say this is wrong, soldiers may say i'm wrong, but do they stand united with the ones they fight against. If we stood globally united, we would be supreme denizens of earth, we would be a better race. would we not? When we conquer death, we have lost life.

Spirits are fragile things, they can easily be shaped, molded and deployed by other spirits. The stronger spirit do indeed dominate the weaker spirits, this process is known as leadership. Back in the physical world, every denizen of mother nature seems to have leaders, especially humans. In wolves it is the Alpha wolf, In elephants it is the matriarch. The only denizen who don't have leader generally live solitary lives. How does one become a leader, in some societies mostly animals leader win in a primitive combat. Humans can do this, but usually the people wanting to lead don't fight the battle. Some humans Vote a much better system, for these is when spirits show their mental capabilities, Their will to resist manipulation comes in, but it places a higher standard of leader, one who may not be able to fight personally, but manipulate people to do it for him. It means only the strong of mind become leaders not the strong of muscle, But still why do we find that we need someone to follow... Through the dark times and the bright? Could it be that a majority of us, are weak minded and only the strong minded can carry the mantle of leader? But the fact is anyone can lead, anyone can be trained to lead, any spirit can evole into a leader, The big questions are, how do they lead? why do they lead? Any person will show devotion to a good honest leader, even more to one who leads by example and won't ask you to do anything they wouldn't do. The problem with modern leader, there not good, they rely on others to lead the society and the leader leads the leaders. We call it goverment. When the President of America goes to Iraq does he fight? does he lead? No he says "hello, good job, keep fighting." We have lost the true leaders, one pops up occasionly and there are many spirits that could be good leader, but they are suppressed due to the physical misfortunes of the world. If I must lead one day, I will lead them right, not in the weak way people lead today, not where the leader is only a figurehead, and the country is lead by other departments.

Why do we deny it. Why do we try so hard to prevent it. Death. A process that has existed as long as life has existed. Death, the end, finished, done, complete, fineto. We try to deny it, try to prevent it so hard but it is pointless. There are many ways to die, some are unpleasant while others are just painful. But Why do we try and prevent it? Life is so incredibly painful, spirits are riddled with pain, sorrow and guilt. but also with happiness and love. We fight death and take all the punishment, hold in all the guilt and feel all the sorrow and all for those few bits of happiness? The answer to my question is simple, We deny it, We fight it, We pointlessly fight death and survive all those things just for the happiness... Just for the love. Every time I see my lover smile I know that it is worth the fight, I know that I must Keep fighting. So yea, I'm going to die, I've accepted that. But I'm gonna fight off the reaper the whole way, Just to see her smile.

lol, that last ones funny and sad now because I dont have a lover anymore, and its true, I am really not fighting off the reaper as hard as I used too. Maybe i'll even welcome him in.

Do I, should I post here?

Lol I ithink you should welcome him xDD

Wow man, your actually telling me I should kill myself, thats heavy man................. I'll think about it

It was a joke! don't invite him! Stay alive!!!! I think you're depressed. go take some anti depressants.

Jeez, man. Please don't keel yourself.